my evil//
i can’t wait for tonight. i can’t wait to feel you touch me. when were together, intimately, it makes all these feelings shake inside me. feelings of when i was 18 and brand new. feelings of deep, deep love for someone. feelings of knowing you so intimately. feeling my sexual appetite change and crave you. Crave you in a different way. Not in the way I used to. I crave your body, your hands..the softness of your breath on my skin. your fingers touching every sensual spot and my body shivering when you ask if i love it. its a physical hunger. i don’t need you (sexually) to feel good about my self, or to confirm I’m wanted. I already know those things. I just need you to ravish me the way you do. In the way you’re so good at.
she’s daddy’s little angel, but she wasn’t last night
never good, always bad ;)
(Source: that-sleazy-bitch, via justinbomb-deactivated20120307)
Last night was amazing. Its strange how he makes me feel just like he did years ago but so new all at the same time. Being with him I find security. Its not because it feels comfortable..its because I’m stronger (mentally) than I used to be. I’m more confident, I’m more sure of who I am seperately from him. For a long time I felt like I had lost myself, and I did. I lost myself in pain, grief, utter saddness. I tried to keep him so close because I was insecure and lost. I never wanted to hurt him. Why would I? If you truly, truly, love(d) someone you wouldn’t say mean and vile things about the person…even if they hurt you.
Love isn’t erased over night. It doesn’t disappear.
—-more on this later.
